NaNoWriMo has not run to my expectations this year. It was my second actual attempt at it and this year I had a plan – a plot, a scene structure and some character outlines thanks to my creative writing course and the motivation it gave me.
I had planned to write 2000 words on my designated writing days and 500 on the other days.
The first two days (‘other’ days) I had my writing time – after the kiddo had gone to bed – and I struggled to get to 200. The next two days I didn’t get anything down.
On one of my writing days I did a bit more plotting and character development but no writing. And I had a few hours on the weekend when Junior went out with his grandparents but I chose to watch a movie with my husband instead.
I think Nano is perhaps too intimidating. I had innocently set myself the goal of simply writing every day with a word count as a guide but I think my current life (read: toddler with sleep problems) doesn’t allow me to write daily. Even if it did I don’t know if my brain works like that.
Why didn’t I write on my writing days? I don’t know. I mean, I did some work writing but maybe the failure of my Nano effort so early has dampened my enthusiasm. Reading all the comments of people in my Nano group who are doing so well has made me feel bad – not encouraged me.
Is NaNoWriMo for the more established writer, someone who at least knows how she works best? I thought it was about the challenge but maybe it is too soon after all.
I often have the thought that forcing it out doesn’t do my writing justice. Of course I have trouble with motivation but this may not be the way to do it.